I have a fear of roller coasters.
I hate saying that because it goes against all I believe about being fun and carefree.
I love corkscrews and going upside down. I love sharp turns and going fast.
But you know the point when you go down a steep slope and you feel like the world is dropping out from under you? Yeah, I hate that feeling.
Sometimes I cry.
Sometimes I want to grip the man's hand next to me so hard that he's forced to cry with me.
Mr. Branflake loves roller coasters. LOVES them.
But because of my fear we have never been on one together.
This time... this time I wanted to be brave so I grabbed Mr. Branflake's hand as soon as the California Adventure gates opened and marched right up to the biggest, baddest coaster in the park.
I told him, "I will lose my nerve if we don't do it now. I don't want to talk about it. I swear I will change my mind if we talk about what's about to happen."
So, as we waited for our turn, we talked about everything except roller coasters.
We talked about what we would do that day, the list of things I wanted to eat, the weather, the sky, the person in front of us, the person behind us... you get the picture.
As we got in I was remarkably calm.
I had my man next to me. All was right in the world.
As soon as the countdown started I even thought, "I will conquer this fear!"
I wish I could tell you that's what happened.
I would love to be able to say, "I went on the craziest roller coaster and it was awesome and we went on it three more times because I loved it so much!"
That is not what happened. I didn't cry, but I came close.
I also came close to throwing up, peeing my pants, and having a heart attack.
I am not smiling in this photo.
I am thinking, "I am never going on a roller coaster ever again."
(I think the kid behind me is saying the same thing.)
Fear: Not Conquered.
Dancing Branflake: Totally Okay With That.
For the record: I love Space Mountain and Big Thunder Mountain. Love them.
Those don't have huge dips.
Raise both your hands if you have a fear of roller coasters!
(Get the joke? Haha!)
photos by Dancing Branflake